Some people have none at all, others super intricate.

I would love to know other peoples.

Mine personally looks like me sitting down with water or a nice warm cuppa tea and putting on some ADHD music to keep me focused.

There’s not much else to it. I write when I can for as long as I can because I don’t always know when the next time I will get to do this is. It does vastly all depend on my flare ups so I work with what I have.

What about you?

We had the scan.

They’re ok, doing great.

Obviously these posts are a little delayed hence the bunching up the announcement and 8 & 12 weeks just because I only recently had the brainwave to pop little things up here.

Breathlessness and nausea still reign supreme but the fatigue. I thought I had bad fatigue before. I don’t know how but this is worse. I could sleep all day and still wake up exhausted.

On the upside, can’t be asleep and nauseous at the same time? Small miracles.

Not sure there is more to say for todays post, I’ve become rather dull and sleepy as you can tell.

Sweet dreams

Ok so technically it’s week 4 by the time you find out.

Just like with the last one it was a bit of a challenge.

There was migraines that lasted days and a few trips to maternity just to get checked. All was healthy and happy and “normal” or whatever you want to use to describe it.

I think the challenge really came from the nausea. After having hyperemesis during the last pregnancy from start to finish and then of course gallstone attacks I developed Emetophobia. Which put simply is the fear of throwing up. So I had a fair few anxiety attacks from morning sickness. Went straight on meds and it looks like that is the only way to live an almost normal existence.

We tried to keep the news as quiet as possible while still trying to have a support network of immediate family as it was high risk wanting to keep things private was really important.

Even though kiddo knew. But that was a bit unavoidable she is smart as hell.

That’s the brief diary for ya.

Not sure I ever mentioned it here before. However before the end of last year it was officially diagnosed after repeated tests and not feeling quite right.

Honestly, sometimes it is just a relief to have an answer.

I got referred to a gynaecologist who told me that I should loose some weight. Fair do, it was not long after Christmas and I had just started a new diet thing. Which in itself was a challenge. But yes it is something that needs to be worked on.

Weight is something I have struggled with for years thanks to other health conditions and flare ups sometimes I can honestly struggle beyond what I am willing to admit to myself, to just get through a basic day. So naturally weight piles on.

The problem with the gynaecologists recommendations came about a week or so after that appointment. Then it became unsafe to consider loosing weight at that point, intentionally at least.

So one week later cycle erratic as hell as PCOS often makes it, I took a routine test. Wouldn’t you know after being told I probably wasn’t even ovulating, there were two pink lines on that test strip, and the following five I took afterwards thinking it was some kind of practical joke or faulty test.

I couldn’t believe my eyes.

It’s wanted. I mean timing is a bit funny considering I was on a diet diet and had all these plans. But plans changed in the best way.

It was unexpected I just thought it was a late one and I was just being paranoid taking a routine test. Little did I know.

Well its not much of a post but just a question. Do you celebrate spoopy season at all?

I know Halloween has all kinds of meanings to people so I am just wondering what it is you do to celebrate it or not?

The weather here is getting wilder and colder and we’ve had plenty of horizontal rain already so it makes me curious about autumn for everyone else.

The quick snack of this week is cheese puff pastry pinwheels. Quick, easy and I don’t have to make the pastry, I alternate the cheese in sections between red Leicester and edam and kiddo loves them. What’s your falling for fall treat?