Not sure I ever mentioned it here before. However before the end of last year it was officially diagnosed after repeated tests and not feeling quite right.

Honestly, sometimes it is just a relief to have an answer.

I got referred to a gynaecologist who told me that I should loose some weight. Fair do, it was not long after Christmas and I had just started a new diet thing. Which in itself was a challenge. But yes it is something that needs to be worked on.

Weight is something I have struggled with for years thanks to other health conditions and flare ups sometimes I can honestly struggle beyond what I am willing to admit to myself, to just get through a basic day. So naturally weight piles on.

The problem with the gynaecologists recommendations came about a week or so after that appointment. Then it became unsafe to consider loosing weight at that point, intentionally at least.

So one week later cycle erratic as hell as PCOS often makes it, I took a routine test. Wouldn’t you know after being told I probably wasn’t even ovulating, there were two pink lines on that test strip, and the following five I took afterwards thinking it was some kind of practical joke or faulty test.

I couldn’t believe my eyes.

It’s wanted. I mean timing is a bit funny considering I was on a diet diet and had all these plans. But plans changed in the best way.

It was unexpected I just thought it was a late one and I was just being paranoid taking a routine test. Little did I know.

Well its not much of a post but just a question. Do you celebrate spoopy season at all?

I know Halloween has all kinds of meanings to people so I am just wondering what it is you do to celebrate it or not?

The weather here is getting wilder and colder and we’ve had plenty of horizontal rain already so it makes me curious about autumn for everyone else.

The quick snack of this week is cheese puff pastry pinwheels. Quick, easy and I don’t have to make the pastry, I alternate the cheese in sections between red Leicester and edam and kiddo loves them. What’s your falling for fall treat?

So, coming to the realisation I cannot keep this posting schedule up at the moment for the foreseeable I have had to make the decision to decrease the amount I will be posting from October as life is about to get in the way.

So part of dealing with a dynamic disability means learning when and how to advocate for myself and right now, I need to slow down with even making the short posts on here. Not that I can be certain anyone reads them.

But even if I am talking to the void sometimes, that is ok.

It’s taken a lot to admit defeat, not that it is defeat, it’s just trying to take care of myself and put my needs first. So I will be posting when I can and less when I feel the pressure that I should.

Well… Ok I don’t normally update this frequently about projects, but I have been making some tough decisions with this story.

First of all I have ripped away all notion now of doing it as duology, I am instead making it a stand alone book.

So what is the plan?

Obviously smush both books together cutting words where needed. Also I have decided to change some of the “in between book 1 ending and book 2’s middle” so to speak. The general vibe and outcome are still very much the same as my original plan, however I have chosen to pair down the complexity and alter some outcomes.

I mean ultimately my intent is to have it concluded with wiggle room on the off chance I ever decide to revisit it.

Whether I want to or not is another story all of its own.

I fully intend to query this book. I hope it will work out. I will update here where possible. However I make no promises there will be much to update. I have a feeling real life is about to take over.

I haven’t indulged in this in a while so here goes nothing.

What’s going on?

Well, it’s been a bit chaotic of late. I’ve been trying to get a blanket knitted, but it hasn’t really happened.

Orkney had its island games a couple of months back and that’s when the knitting started unravelling, not truly but it stalled. There was a heatwave and I don’t do well in heat anymore. It’s not like I moved to Orkney for glorious sunshine and good weather, it was the bad horizontal wind and rain that brought me here excitedly. Summer is great and all, but I have been clinging on for dear life meaning that knitting isn’t possible.

But I do have a vision in mind for this project… think duck pond. Wavey blue blanket and then I will attempt to knit and stuff some ducks that I brought the pattern for from etsy. Not true looking ducks, ones that look like rubber ducks.

What am I writing?

Well, that is easy to answer, it is a project I have nicknamed mac and cheese.

Actually called “The magpie and the Crow” but still. MAC for short, hence how it got its nickname.

It’s kind of like if Shadow Hunters had a baby with original Charmed. Also great for people that loved Cole.

That has been the main focus, I want to get these drafts done and get it out to query as soon as I can. I have a good vibe about this.

It’s not to say I am abandoning “The Big Project” completely. I absolutely will without fail write that series. But I feel right now is a great time for MAC it has the vibe I want to write right now.

One thing that I stumble a lot with when it comes to MAC is that I under write. This will be a duology because I know that both halves together would be considered too long. Though I will write the second part in it once I get through this current draft and send it on out to my fabulous Beta readers.

What does the future hold?

Well that would be telling. Right now, I can’t say. I am taking each day as it comes and having faith in the universe that things will work out. There’s a lot happening that I am progressively getting ready for.

Definitely in the New Year I will probably be working on that whole “New Year New You” type thing. I am ready for some positive change, it’s been a while.