So I did do an unexpected additional post this month.
The Diary of Elliot Parker is here !!! Yay!!! Excited by this. Very excited.
Well… in other news… My ribs still suck no matter how much I try to pretend like they are not bothering me I can’t say its not bothering me. I am trying to constantly distract myself. But as I am sure you can guess, distraction can only go so far. It would be lovely if the pain would like to take a holiday, a permanent one so that I can at least get a decent nights sleep. It just feels frustrating, especially with the now knowing its going to take months or years to heal. I wish that I could physically throw a tantrum like a 2 year old. You know the kind, the screaming, smashing and fist slamming, leg stomping tantrum. I would love to be able to do that. I want to scream and shout and just release this goddamn frustration and pain. I feel so trapped. I know I haven’t spoken about what happened or the how. Not in any directness. There was a reason for that, I felt very censored and worried about writing anything in depth, and to be honest, the pain was very bitter and it never seemed to improve, so I guess I just couldn’t face writing it. Well its been 7 months. many doctors appointments. many painkillers… its just not budging. I really do want to scream sometimes from the way it feels. I don’t know how anyone who has to feel like this or worse or deal with the pain and just be constantly trucking, I have no idea how anyone does it, but I have total respect from them.
My awesome and incredibly patient guitar teacher is teaching me “Thinking Out Loud”. He is great and very patient with me. He deserves a medal. While trying to learn is a good distraction, it is uncomfortable to put it politely, but, the little things, like practicing, would really help if I could do it, even a little few minutes semi regularly.
The dog is good, for anyone who has been wondering, he’s still very naughty but very lovely and cuddly.
Gotta give some props for the tattoo shop that lets me go in and sit on their sofas every so often if I am in town and need a break in a quiet corner to sure myself up for the next stage of whatever it is I have to get done that day. They are used to the odd days when I go in and just need to sit for a while, normally I am out of breath, dizzy and in a lot of pain and they just let me sort of get to a point of being able to get moving again, they are very cool. Nice and chatty and I do always recommend them to anyone I meet. They are lovely. I know it probably breaks some bizarre stereotype. But stopping somewhere out in the open or whatever does make you feel very exposed when you feel very vulnerable, it’s not very nice to feel very self conscious in a public place because you aren’t feeling very well.
Anything else I missed?
Obvious plug for The Diary of Elliot Parker? Hmmn…. CHECK IT OUT!
There that’s the plug done.
Time to plug the pre-order link…
The pre-order link is available now… Due to release 14th January!
I just want to remind you that there are books that are open, and available to you. So here is the link to my amazon author page, why not see if something takes your fancy. (Psst- got a secret for ya… The Diary of Elliot Parker will be arriving there soon 😉 hehe)
May luck and adventure be on your side!