For myself? HAHAHAHAHA …. no.

I want to, I wish I did. It is something I am working on. I am no pro at the old self discipline.

In other words, at the start of April I started a diet. It took less than two months to fall off the wagon and hide from it. I had lost about 4 kilos, as of right now I put back on 3 of those in the 3 weeks I have been hiding from the wagon.

I realise my error now was trying to be all or nothing, but completely perfect at it and not at all nothing. Perfectionism… or is it self sabotage?

I don’t know.

So now what?

Perhaps I should be working on reframing the idea of the diet. If just being on a diet feels restrictive, low energy and depressing what else can I reframe it as? Could it be building new habits, a lifestyle change. Rather than saying “sorry I can’t I am on a diet” what would actually feel better to say? “I’m working on some lifestyle changes” or ” I am creating new habits and I want to work to support that”? They feel more positively inclined so maybe I will test those out today.

I think the next two weeks my main focus is going to fall off of dieting, still trying to move and exercise and be careful due to how much this caused flare ups of my health. Instead my focus for two weeks will be consistently hydrating. I will count coffee as 125ml as it has diuretic qualities, but otherwise my hydration is going to be the first thing to increase and maintain consistently. I think my goal might be around 2 litres a day minimum so that I can find a baseline hydration.

The second habit I think I will introduce is meeting an absolute minimum step count each day. I know they say the minimum should be 4000 steps to count as a sedentary lifestyle. I think at least hitting that a day might be a step in the right direction. Health and flare ups likely to be my biggest obstacles. Sadly medical conditions are a massive obstacle I am working with at the moment.

What other habits could I introduce? Planning meals with nutrition in mind? Consciously eat and be present? So far the baby steps are hydrating more, moving a bit more. Stamina takes time to build, Rome wasn’t built in a day, neither was this waistline.