Writing Dilemma

Ok so I am hoping that writing this will help me to fix the problem I am having.

Ok so I am editing a piece that I wrote a few years ago, it’s a piece I love. It has a few twists to it. But here is the point, I have a female character who has a love hate relationship with her best friend, although they are more or less allies. But I have pre-paved a boy interest for her, you know one of those douche bags in comparison to the whole story he doesn’t have a focal point but he does have his eye on the girl. It’s going to be a predator prey type thing but who is what tends to be quite fluid. There is a natural divide. So is my main female character going to experiment with the friend (who for those that need clarity is female). It’s not to have a story of experimentation, it’s not even something I considered viable for her. A drunken kiss perhaps at most but I don’t think they blend together in a power couple way. Like personality wise, yes they have each-others backs. But no, they don’t feel like a happy ever after couple thing.

There is a lot of gratitude and affection between them. Sure that line could possibly be blurry. Probably an accidental kiss. But I think said friend is definitely hetero but the main, well there could be a question. An unease. I don’t know. It would make a simple edit/rewrite into a giant rewrite on the ending. I mean I would probably ship them, but ones straight for certain. So I think there is the opportunity for a confusion which could lead to very rushed decisions trying to conform back to the status quo.

I ship them, I can make ship happen. But friend doesn’t fit into the world that she is falling into, flirtationships and oh it’s just so sad. I think I will add that accidental kiss with Dutch courage. Get the ship going just to sink it and shut it down. The first main bi character I would write and she doesn’t get to be herself. It seems so real, like I am sure there are people that deny who they are. Oh this is a sad ship… sad, sad ship. Oh I am sorry, I am so sorry for anyone who reads this and knows how mean I decided to be. I feel sorry for anyone who reads this story and gets hurt by the ship. But the ship hurts me too.

It was never even meant to be an option, or a possibility.

I ship it.

But I am writing it.

So I am sinking the ship.


And just in case you are wondering if this is to do with The Diary of Elliot Parker, I am sorry darlings but it’s not.


Oh I am writing the scene right now…

Oh ouch “college experience”… heartless girl!

Oh ouch, they are still friends but someone’s still thinking about it.

Man it sucks to see like a movie in my head sucks more seeing how she really looks when she is alone, the thoughts she is trying to ignore.

Wow it kind of sucks.


#swiftlychanging conversation


I wonder if this will create more tension in the original planned relationship? How does the new partner navigate the now messy friendship? Questions I need to answer for myself.



Looks like I gave a little commentary on the writing. But yes, its two whole new chapters that were never meant to be in the book at all… MAGIC…


May luck and adventure be on your side 😉

ARA xxx

Here is the cheeky little link for The Diary of Elliot Parker available now!!


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